The house is empty. The parental units will return from yet another vacation destination in the morning. I’m in my room enjoying the memories of this weekend. I had an incredible time being with you and your friend. I was able to forget myself and the reality of my life for a couple of days. Thank you young grasshopper.
I’m sure you can sense how I feel about you, but for some reason tonight I need to write this letter. I should have said these things in person. After all, that was the advice I gave you tonight, that you needed to tell Noah how you felt about him. But truth be known, I’m kind of a hypocritical pussy when it comes to this stuff, so I’m kicking it old school, hiding behind pen and paper. Besides, writing it down makes it real and you need to know my feelings are real.
When we first met it didn’t feel like the beginning of a friendship. It felt as if we were already there. You make everything in my crappy life bearable and better. When I’m with you, I’m just a twenty year old guy with a hot, intelligent, funny, and caring girl, who gets me. I’m a guy who looks forward to the next day because I know I’ll be spending time with you. What we do during that time is irrelevant. The only thing that matters is I’m with you.
My life for the past five years has been so abnormal. Since the day the doctors told me and my parents my probable future, everyone has asked me what I wanted. Did I want to meet a famous person or take a special trip? They thought these things would make me happy and feel better. All I’ve ever wanted since that day was for my life to be normal again. You’re the only person who has given me what I wanted. Before we met I had pretty much accepted my future. You came along and I got pissed off because my future was no longer acceptable to me. I want more time together, but I don’t think there’s any organization that can make that wish come true.
You will never be alone because I’ll be there for you. When you’re feeling down, I’ll be there. When you’re hurting, I’ll be there. When you need extra strength to get through the day, I’ll be there. When you’re smiling and happy, I’ll be there too. You won’t always see me, or hear me but know I’ll be watching over you.
Thank you for giving me the gift of true friendship, pure love, and connecting to my soul mate—things I never thought I’d get a chance to experience. I will treasure them and you for the rest of my life.
I love you Amanda.